Friday, August 13, 2010

My words cannot explain...

...so I'll let Christina do the singing talking for me. Generally, I've been feeling like crap recently. I'm struggling with rapid weight gain and feeling too lazy to exercise.  Just for the record, when I started this blog 2 years ago. I weighed approximately 120lbs. Tonight I climbed the scale and I weighed in at a whopping 150lbs!! WTF?!

It's completely unfair, unreal, f**king retarded! I mean...What the heck happened in 2 years? Well, I got my 2nd degree, finally broke up with my on-again/off-again boyfriend of 3 years, started doing serious things like volunteering in the community, and what do I get for all my hard work - 30 extra pounds of fat.

My mom is extremely funny. She doesn't get it. The other day she commented on 'how I'm finally growing into my body'.... "your real body is really coming out now". What the heck is that supposed to mean anyway?! Then I get all these weird aunts and uncles alluding to the fact that I look so "mature" (read: fat) and ready for marriage. (Me: HELL NO!!!). I don't understand any of this. It's funny because none of my family is telling me to lose weight, they're all just sitting back and watching me 'blossom'.

I'm so bored when  people say, "You weigh I50lbs? Oh wow...you don't look it at all....everything is so proportional...blah blah". They're just giving me positive reinforcement to keep avoiding the gym. So far my rationale has been that 'If I don't look that bad, it's not that serious'. I AM SO WRONG!

There are other things like high cholesterol, diabetes, and clogged arteries which will never be seen through cute summer frocks or playful peep-toe sandals or flawless face or perfect hair. Fashion cannot cure Heart Disease!

And that was my midnight rant. I'll just go to bed now & sob to Christina here. Tomorrow, I'll grab my running shoes and hit the gym. Enough is Enough. F M L. Obesity is a Sin. Father, forgive me for I am the baddest sinner.



9 comments:

Jaycee said...

Don't quote me, but I think stress can make people gain or lose weight (in your case the former). Just try to get in the no-stress healthy diet zone, you'll be fine.

Ginger said...

First time here I think.

Soz Anyaposh. Talk about one girl's meet being another girl's poison. I want to add me some weight. Just wrote a post about it. Help please?

Ginger said...

Thanks for stopping by Anyaposh. Gal, that diet is work na! No wonder I'm not adding weight. Seeing that much food just wearies me.

Myne Whitman said...

Weight doesn't necessarily transfer to Heart disease. Check out your stats and know for sure whether you need to worry. All the best,

Anyaposh said...

jaycee, i've been on a mission to de-clutter my life since last month. so i hope that the end of stress will mean the shedding of those pounds!

ginger, good luck on your weight gain program. remember only healthy fats.

myne whitman, yeah, my stats say I'm definitely overweight. And my BMI is teetering on the high end of the scale. I think for my height and bone mass, 150lbs is too much for my frame to carry :(

SHE said...

So how come everyone else can't see the fat?
Sounds like someone is going to hit the gym on a large scale...

Fragilelooks said...

lol. pls follow ur heart and hit the gym asap.

The Girl with the Red Hair said...

you can like to sharply hit the gym, no body will not till one gets all blown up and they will start calling you fat. It happened to me but now am back to my normal size

Anyaposh said...

she, I dunno. gyming has started in full swing. I've been dancing a lot. I need results quick!

fragilelooks, lol. thanks for that vote.

that babe with red hair, lwkm... abi o. overweight is not my portion!