Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Where do I begin? Everything has Changed.

Hey everyone,

Instead of doing a very detailed entry, I got this Q&A from Coupe de Coeur and I filled out my own answers. I've been soooo lazy to do an actual post describing what's been going on with me this past couple months. It's been sooo crazy. Everything is so different now as a grad student....sheesh. The expectations are so much higher & I'm just plain sick about everything.



Anyway, my X-boy & I are back together. My post on the perfect love was about us. He's being such a sweet heart these days. But I just can't get over the voices screaming 'doom, doom, doom ahead' in my mind about the fate of our relationship. I think I have way too many wants, needs, & demands for his simplistic nature to comprehend. Sometimes I feel like he just doesn't get it. Like when I say, 'call me often', he'll do that for a few days & then fizzle out. He says he loves me dearly but I feel that in terms of where I want us to be he's just emotionally unavailable, like Funms summarised here.

Anyway, other than relationship woes & school stress, everything else is generally fine. I'm excited for christmas & no, I haven't started shopping yet (arrrgggh...). I've been so busy with papers & projects that going to the mall just seemed trivial compared to the grander scheme of things.

Ok, so lemme get to work quickly so I can get this paper done!

Anya.....x

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Q&A time:

where is your cell phone?
In the pocket of my coat

where is your significant other? in New Yawk...

your hair color?
Black but i'm growing out a caramel dye job

your mother? Cross-River, Nigeria

your father? 
Akwa-Ibom, Nigeria

your favorite thing? umm...Reading

your dream last night? It was a nightmare about me fighting off a dog/wolf that was trying to attack me.

your dream/goal? be a successful consultant with an NGO, to continue growing

the room you're in?
university library study area

your hobby? reading, watching movies. I'm going to take up swimming soon & maybe sewing/knitting as well.

your fear? ice, height, water, & being sad in the future.

where do you want to be in 6 years? by God's grace, working a good job I enjoy, married with at least 1 child, own a house & living somewhere in the Mediterranean

where were you last night?
at home

what you're not? snobbish, confrontational, I love peace at any cost. I don't always like this about me.

one of your wish list items? an 8" laptop for those days I need to carry around something lighter.

where you grew up? Abuja, Nigeria; (I'd like to say Abidjan, Cote D'Ivoire - I love West African French) I was just in Port Dover, Ontario Canada; a few days ago

the last thing you did?
drink coffee

what are you wearing? Blue Jeans, black tank top & a purple sweater.

your tv? in my room

your pet? I had a dog. He was a Labrador & the most adorable thing on the planet.

your computer? in my room

your mood? stressed out. why am I doing this survey when I could be working on that paper?!

missing someone? my boyfriend. I wish we could chill

your car? I don't have one. So I guess its at the car dealership

something you're not wearing? my bangles

favorite store? hmm... that's a hard one. I would have to say Lush, M.A.C, RW & Co, and bebe.

your summer? I travelled to Nigeria.

love someone? my boyfriend, my family.

your favorite color? red

when is the last time you laughed? last night

last time you cried? can't remember. I thought about this a few days ago, but I didn't ask myself the question out loud so I don't jinx anything & end up in tears.

are you a b*tch? rarely, but I hate stupidity & redundancy. So yes, when I get PMS it's not a happy world after all.


favorite past time? eating, watching TV online.

are you a hater or a lover? I can be both. I'm learning to love more now

are you genuine or fake? Both. It depends on if the occasion calls me to perform. I'm fake when I don't have time to be genuine. Being genuine all the time is sooo much work.

any vices? obsessing about my hair. I'm newly natural so it's hard not to obsess. Tho, now i'm slowly becoming a minimalist. Less is more!!!

pro life or wire hanger? pro-life

mccain or obama? Obama. What did you expect?

pro plastic or natural? Natural.

dream job? Anything that gives me Power! Power!! & more Power!!! I am a Megalomaniac.

If you haven't been tagged, consider yourself tagged!!

30 comments:

doug said...

First Again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Off to read

doug said...

Hmm the thing with you and your boyfriend reminds me of me and my ex.
She wanted to call/see me everytime and I get terribly irritated when I have to do that for anyone. Perhaps cupid hasnt hit a bullseye with me yet?

Tagged? I dunno...that tagging thing is hard work jo.

doug said...

Also....Third! :D

doug said...

An afterthought...It really depends on how steep the learning curve for the young man your dating is and whether or not he can make the curve. Some people just burn out, as I did. It might be different for you guys.


P.S - I really didnt mean to do this but...FOURTH!!!

PPS - Should I go for a Fifth I wonder? Naaah, I gathering too much beef in blogsville these days.

doug said...

Oh what the heck....FIFTH!!!!!!!

Funms-the rebirth said...

technically, im 2nd.......... c;mon doug ur crowding the page....lol
glad to know u and ur X r working things out!
what happened to ur dog?

AnyaPosh said...

OMIGOSH!!!! doug u've done it again. you just had to hog the #1 spot...and then 2nd, 3rd, 4th... really??! You know funms is 2nd right? Hahaha!

And Funms, Cosmos got too old & died :( he was 9 yrs old. After a while he suddenly stopped eating & then one morning we found him laying stiff in the backyard. It was sooo sad.

Amina said...

girl, i can understand your woes about grad school!!
I always feel that way...
all i can say is hang in there :)

Ms.O said...

I didnt know u where Canadian!!!...awww but i have never heard of where you live tho,...hmmmm...The Q&A was funny..:)

Afrobabe said...

Sweet Jesus, how many comments does doug have?

I get seriously irritated when a guy calls me too much...too much depends on how clingy he is and what exactly he is calling about...

NigerianDramaQueen said...

Aww take it slow with your boo...don't overthink things ok?! Grad school must be intense. Red is one of my favorite colors too!

dat one okrika girl...xyz said...

Take it easy...yeah grad school is no joke but there is light at the end of the tunnel. Good luck with all your papers and exams.

AlooFar said...

Oh, sorry about Cosmos.
On being a grad student - don't worry, it's a phase, ok?

Buttercup said...

glad u n ur bf r back together..just give it some time, maybe its cos u just got back together..

all the best with school..its never easy..

i've seen somn to do for when i have bloggers block..woohoo!

Freaksho said...

you KNIT?

Original Mgbeke said...

i have natural hair too so yay to that. So you're 1/4 belizean huh? Very interesting.
And oooh i'm jealous you got to travel to 2 places this summer. Hissss! :-)

AnyaPosh said...

Amina, I will be done with everything tonight. I'm so excited to have gotten thru this semester.

Ms. O, yes I'm Canadian (lol)..the excitement :| And Port Dover is a small town in Norfolk County near Lake Erie. Are u Nigerian canadian too?

Afrobabe, doug has taken the liberty to hog my comment space. It's kinda cute actually ;)
And how about when the guy isn't calling enough like he only calls 2wice a week? & I call him nearly everyday. Am I whipped or what?!

NDQ, thanks babe. But I won't lie things are very rocky right now. Trust issues are beginning to flare up, I dunno what will happen later...

Dat 1 Okrika babe, thanks hun. I'm almosty done so now I can finally go christmas shopping!!!

Aloofar, thank you! My family had that dog b4 I was even born so it was a terrible loss when he died. And grad school is a killer but its not too bad, im just exaggerating cos I was too lazy to plan ahead for that essay.


Buttercup hmm...its not easy for us. I just have to wait and see how things turn out. Sometimes I become suddenly irritated at him for very little things...we have underlying issues. oh well...we'll see. And Yes, consider yourself tagged!

Freaksho, yes! Altho i'm not too proud becus I have so many unfinished products. Do you knit also?

AnyaPosh said...

Original mgbeke, its like we were posting our responses at the same time. Ha! Natural hair is the way to go hunny...i'm 2 yrs post-relaxer and I love it! And yea...the belizean part of me is so recessive lol..from old pics my nana looked black but she was Kriol. So i don't have too much of that half-caste bisness going on for me...I look like a normal calabar babe! :P

Afrobabe said...

oh..yeah I also hate it when I sleep with my phone hoping it will ring...even wake me and he doesn't call...they can never win can they???

bArOquE said...

isnt it sweet to be in love (agree or not, thats your situation)...do yourself good & make the best of it...sometimes, its not all about us

& good way to get we lazy people to tag outselves abi, nice try...LOL

doug said...

@Anya: "Afrobabe, doug has taken the liberty to hog my comment space. It's kinda cute actually ;)"

[winks right back] ;)

Jarrai said...

Somebody's in love! girl am happy for you, just enjoy it.

As for grad school, it will be over soon.

Yay to natural hair,come over to my blog to meet pretty curls xx

bumight said...

grad school can be a bitch, but i'm sure you'll adjust. hey, I'm still alive!!!

and i know that Q&A didnt just read "prolife or wire hanger, lol!

take it easy with the boo!

Yayemarie said...

Hey Anya
don't give upppp
things will work out sis
i guess when its hard and we hold on that's when we are really "living" so go on sis
things will work out
ahh u lived in abidjan u have to speak a bit of french then lol come on anya
welcome to nappy land
thank u for the coment on the music
have a good day
ohh men do hate when we call them too much its not that they dont care but its just not their thang ..i know..i know ridiculous lol
give a chance to the brotha
bisous
yaye

Afrobabe said...

AnyaPosh and doug please stop all the winking at each other...its making me dizzy!!!

AnyaPosh said...

bArOquE, its sweet I agree but it's also complete agony.

Jarrai, grad school was so intense last semester but I loved every bit of it, i won't lie - i went crazy over stress a few times but it went very well :)
& good luck with pretty curls, I checked it.

bumight, I'm glad someone else is going thru this hustle with grad school. The thot is comforting. And yes...the Q&A read 'pro-life or Wire hanger'! LOL...as in seriously, like I would go bring on the wire hanger up in my uterus.

Yayemarie, I will confess. I lived in abidjan for like 3months straight in a diplomat estate so i'm sorry. Je ne sais parle francais! And as for the brotha, I put this love thing on the back burner for now...we'll see how it goes. All that has happened is post for another day.

Afrobabe, is the winking paining you?! LOL... I can wink at you too babe, no prob. ;)

Miss Definitely Maybe said...

sometimes its good to just tke things slow and not worry about tomorrow, just enjoy the relationship....tomorrow will come.

RocNaija said...

So is this the same dude you talked about in your penultimate post?

AnyaPosh said...

Yes, MissDefMaybe...we're definitely taking things slow.
And Roc9ja...Yes. same guy! Sometimes it feels like we're running in a rat maze :S

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