Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Love Stinks!

...especially at Christmas time. I think I'm depressed. I'm stuck in a half-way house of unrequited (spectacular)love. 

What do you do when a man says he loves you but does not show it in a way that you want?
What do you do when you know that this man can never show you the kind of love you expect from a relationship?
What do you do when you can't step away from this kind of love?
...you find yourself sticking around, hoping that this kind of love will get better, this man will give more; give you what you deserve.

But you know that this kind of love is less than your standards, it is below par, it is not a consuming-type of love...it is just average...nothing spectacular, it's not that make-you-wanna-dance-in-the-streets type of love. It is disappointing.

Love stinks!

He said: ...what do you want?
She said: ...I just want love. Is that too much to ask?!

They say you have to give love to get love. Well, I've been giving and giving, when will I get mine? I've been giving you this love since for a longtime. The magnitude of my love -giving was so much more than you could ever match up. You only gave a little, and a little more, then only a little more - nothing compared to the magnitude of the self-sacrificing love I gave you.

So on the eve of 2010, I'm turning the taps off. I'm going to give less & less of this love, until I stop giving  completely. If you will not match my magnitude with gratitude, I will not accommodate your ineptitude. 






Anya

16 comments:

neefemi said...

awwwww.....it maybe the right thing to do, wishing you all the best as u start the New Year, and God will bring you, your own true love

Amina said...

aaaw.....2010 will be a new beginning! you deserve love that makes you dance in the streets. Happy new year beautiful lady

Loved One said...

Wow.This is scary lol. I just declared this (within my own relationship) last night right before I lay my head on my pillow to sleep.
I'm in the same boat as you and 2010 things have to change. Hang in there!

akaBagucci said...

Clearly moving on is the only 'solution' but then we often find it hard to let go!

Sassy Trends said...

Ehyah..ndo baby..
This is quite difficult...
Still hold on a bit even with the less luv you have decided to give..

It will be ok
Seasons Greetings...
xx

Ms.O said...

made that decision a couple of months ago. I stopped giving. especially when it was not appreciated. hang in there babe.

BSNC said...

2010 is your year of recieving...

compliments of the season.

Myne Whitman said...

I think this is the right time of the year for these kinds of decisions, I wish you the bestest dearie. Happy New year in advance.

Kola Tubosun said...

I love that picture.

TayneMent said...

that was deep. All the best, it's never easy.

Ms.O said...

Anya Love! Happy Newyear!!!

Anya P said...

neefemi, thanks hun: it feels like the right thing to do now.

amina, i hope so!! happy new year to you too darl.

loved one, i guess the heartbreak bug has bitten you too. i hope your 2010 is filled with better happiness.

akaBagucci, it's so darn hard to let go but this new year must be the beginning of new things!

sassy trends, i dunno how i can keep holding without going crazy. anyhow, i'll keep y'all posted.

ms. O, gurl we have to talk so many similarities! ugh..2010 has to be better for us! so much betttterr!

BSNC, thanks & same to you dear.

Myne Whitman, yes o, it feels like the right decision; so let 2010 bring it on!

kola, me too ;p

taynement, thank you.

Ms. O, same to you hun. All the best in this new decade!!

The CultureCynic said...

THANK YOU for always being sooo sweeet! wishing you the very best this new year, as much as it is a cliche, but new year has to be about dat new new....love is a complicated thing, but u r a smart one, you are going to be just fine.

Nice Anon said...

Sometimes one has got to turn the tap off. Hope this year brings better things for you. Happy New Year!

Andrea said...

Happy newyear miss posh

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