men! men!! men!!! i don't understand why i even bother creating the environment for something magical to happen. so remember the guy I talked about from my previous post, yeah well so he asked me out. it wasn't too formal or anything. we just thought to grab a bite, something quick to eat on one of those chilly nights. well, we went and grabbed a bunch of stuff: pizza, chicken wings, cheese bread, beer. nothing fancy. we were basically going to pig out on my couch in front of the TV and play a few video games - nothing slightly even romantic. anyway, by the time we get home - my apartment is basically charging from all the electricity going between the 2 of us, too much sexual tension but we chill out, eat, talk, play games, talk some more.
And then all of a sudden, it vanishes. all the sparks i was feeling just die out. i mean completely DEAD. i don't even know how it happened. whether it was in the conversation, or i got bored (me sef!) or what, but there was nothing by the end of the night. dude has officially been put in the friendship stable.
So then weird turn of events, last week I found out that he has started seeing someone else. A white girl in the GTA (greater toronto area). And guess what, I get jealous! outta no where. i'm calculating in my head tryna figure out when they started seeing each other and if there was any overlap with our "date" night. it was weird. so i snap out of it & tell myself that I basically shunned the man after our date because i was only looking to flirt with him for a few weeks but then why was i getting all territorial & sh!t. anyway...i'm officially done with men for 2009. I have no intention of making "connections" or any of that other bullshit associated with playing the field for the rest of this year. Right now, i'll just look forward to Christmas and New Year's. It's going to be major this year. i'll tell you details later!